Even though it happens a lot, I still feel like magic is manifesting around me when it does and it happens almost daily. It is so bazaar. What am I talking about? My verifications.
The other day, I was running around the beautiful Lake Monger, when as per usual, I was lost in my thoughts. I got to thinking about how it has come to my attention that so many of my own issues in the past and those of others that have been shared with me, always seem to come down to a lack of belief in one’s self worth.
As I was having this thought, a young anorexic girl that I see a lot, rode past me and she became my sign that I was on the right track and needed to write about it.
The girl that I am talking about is someone that I have been seeing at the lake since I started writing my book nearly three years ago. Just as I was experiencing writers block or fear issues, she would ride past me and remind me of why I was writing it in the first place; to help people exactly like her.
So many times I have wanted to talk to her and tell her how she is loved more than she knows, even by a complete stranger and how she has helped me without even having a clue how. I wish I knew her name so I could call it out and get her attention, because she is always riding so fast and gone before I can. Still, I believe I will get to speak with her one of these days and I look forward to that. In the mean time, I could not be happier that she is still alive.
The serendipitous appearance of my little friend was so symbolic. As a former long time sufferer of bulimarexia and subsequent addictive behaviours, I now know it all stemmed from my lack of self worth. That very deep and subconscious belief has come up repeatedly during my kinesiology sessions and is something I have been working very hard to reverse.
As my awareness of this has come to the fore, I have observed it in many others around me. I see that self destructive behaviours all stem from this very same thing. It contributes to all sorts of issues including addiction, toxic relationships, and self sabotage patterns however it’s not something most people are in any way conscious of.
Since January 1st this year, I have made a very concerted effort to repeat the words ‘I am worthy’ to myself every single day. ‘I am worthy of a fit, healthy body’. ‘I am worthy of healthy relationships’. ‘I am worthy of all of the wonderful things that life has to offer’. ‘I am worthy of financial freedom’ and the list goes on. Since I have been doing this, a great many wonderful things have happened.
You have to keep repeating it until you really believe it with every inch of your soul. A lifetime of subconscious thought patterns can’t be reversed overnight, but with constant effort, they can be changed and the ripple effect in your life will surprise you, like magic.
Each and every one of us is worthy. We are worthy of being here. We are worthy of love. We are worthy of living happy and authentic lives. We are worthy of truly feeling our worth.
If there is something in your life that you feel is holding you back, try repeating variations of your worthiness to yourself every single day and watch what happens.
You are worth it.
Love & Light Always,